Constricted: Process

While I am not entirely happy with my entry for the 2015 Enchanted Doll contest, it does provide interesting insights to my work process. (And I say interesting because even I am continuing to discover how I start, work and finish my bigger projects.)

See, this rendering is interesting because while it is “final” in a sense that it was the one submitted, it is not yet my work process in whole. Think of it as my creative process truncated in the middle, and then hurriedly brought to completion. See, I had a sudden work-related travel schedule days before the deadline to a place where I did not have reliable internet access. I liked my concept so much that I would have been disappointed not to submit it.

But you know how you remember dreams better when you wake up in the middle of them? That is exactly what this piece is like. It may not be finished in its true sense to me, but I remember the process so well that I thought it would be worth posting here. ūüôā

First notes

Everything I do – be it a story or a work of art – always starts with loose sketches and notes. Usually, I just jot down the first things that come to my head and, given enough time and thought, they evolve into refined plans. Truthfully, many crazy concepts come into my head that never reach fruition because either a.) I never get the chance to record them and write them down; or b.) I lack the skills the make them work.

Here are my very first concept sketches:


My first idea was to explore the human body as a story. (The sketches on the right page are the first ones.) I wanted to draw a “map” of the human body – a literal geographic map about an un-literal place. With names such as “generosity” inscribed on the hands, or “passion” at the heart.

That didn’t quite work out, so I tried exploring the idea of a literal map of anatomy. That didn’t work so much either.

Next, I wanted to explore the story of the doll as a machine. That is since EDs are crafted painstakingly to look human – what if the tattoo would make it more glaringly like the piece of engineering that it is.

My last idea, which is obviously what I went with, were binding neck rings such as those of the Kayan Lahwi inscribed with calligraphy of feminine ideals like beauty, elegance and poise. I then decided that the neck space might not be enough for the lettering, so I settled on corset rings instead.


I played with this idea for a bit (although I did have a side-concept of tattooing hands symbolizing violation as well). It materialized into¬†the coils of a snake as the corset rings. To symbolize beauty’s restricting and soul-eating standards, one of the ideas had the snake attacking her heart.IMG_9170

Eventually, I decided that writing words on the coils was way too literal. Hence, I settled on making the snake corset as beautiful as possible, representing beauty itself. Initially, I wanted soft, lace-like patterns.

But these eventually materialized into the patterns inspired by the work of Gustav Klimt. I have been interested in Klimt’s work for a long time, and even have a book of his works. But what made me even more enamored in his work was when Jen Zee incorporated his patterns into the science fiction indie game, Transistor. I found it¬†brilliant. I had never thought of depicting semiconductors as Klimt-ish patterns. And ever since I finished the game, I’ve been obsessed with eccentric patterns.

The concept

Sketches are interesting, but they’re not really very pretty. They do, however, lead to my concept note. These are usually fully rendered watercolors that further explore the concept just before the final rendering.


Aha! Those look familiar, you say. This is what I meant when I said that my process was truncated. Had I not had to do so much work or had enough time to spend on my entry, those images would not have appeared on my final entry. I would have completely redrawn them into a polished piece.


The concept still included the heart as a fruit (a reference to Eve, I guess?), but eventually did away with it as it made the design look too “busy”. I was also trying to decide whether to put the snake’s head in front or at the back. I decided that the back was more appropriate: the front could showcase the tattoo’s sheer beauty while the back, its treachery.

But please take a few minutes with me to appreciate just what a beautiful color M. Graham’s Nickel Quinacridone Gold¬†is. Seriusly, look at how a color that should be, by all means, flat looks… well, golden. I think I’m in love.

The details

After finishing the concept, I generally sketch out the details so I don’t get “lost” while making the final piece.


Here are the unfinished snake details. Had I more time, I would have continued the black inking, added gold watercolor paint and white gouache.

Notes to the future


Another thing I like to do is write notes for my future self. I’m a forgetful person, so stumbling upon my old notes is always super fascinating. It makes me go, “who is this person that I barely know?” And so I’ve taken to write down my thoughts about the project, just so the future me has a record of them. Think of it as my pensieve. ūüôā

The final piece?

And then I got busy… really busy at work! Since this is the job that feeds and clothes me and allows me to buy all the art materials to fuel my addiction, I had to put it first.


I was all set to do the final rendering when I realized that my sudden travel schedule would not allow me to finish and submit it before I leave.¬†Sadly, you can’t have everything in this world and so I worked with what I had as we neared the deadline.


The most realistic way to finish, I decided, was to take the images I already had and then take it to Photoshop to clean it up and to add the details on the snake.


As you can see, I decided on the two images where I was torn between putting the snake in front or at the back. The bigger image on top was actually more detailed in itself, but I chose these just because I liked the poses.

I noticed that Marina uses either a blue or red color for her dolls’ tattoos in combination with white. I selected the blue because I decided that this would contrast better with the planned gold overlays.

I painted a layer over the snake in an approximation of that royal blue color, then added the gold overlays by erasing the blue to reveal the gorgeous gold watercolor paint underneath.

Et voila!


I then emailed this file to Chad and Marina, with a very short sleep-deprived description. ūüėõ

Last Notes

Of course, if I had more time, the entry would have been totally polished and then I might even delusion myself into thinking that I have a chance to win.

As it is, though, it shall forever remain in its sketch-like state. I do love it as it is, despite its flaws.

If I could do things differently, though, I would remove or edit the coils around her leg. Since it¬†appears at a leg joint, it’s going to be difficult for the design to appear properly at different positions. I would also add further detail to the tattoo.

Overall, I just loved working on this piece! It’s always a pleasure to make something for one of my favorite artists, who has such a profound influence in my own work. All the beautiful entries are view-able at the Enchanted Doll 2015 Contest Page. Mine is No. 119.

The Top 20 entries will be announced shortly. I already have a shortlist of my own personal favorites! Mind you, I know I probably shouldn’t expect to win anything at all, but I¬†am¬†super excited nonetheless!

Edit: The Top 20 is up! My entry didn’t make it, but some of my favorites did! But my personal top 3 is No. 103 (you already know I’m partial to anatomical art), No. 217¬†(that beautiful rendering and the costume that comes with it is simply divine), and No. 249 (the hands concept touched my mind briefly during my process, but I never imagined it could come with such a beautiful story).



This is my entry to this year’s Enchanted Doll contest, which Marina Bychkova holds (almost) every year to celebrate her birthday. This year’s theme is to design a tattoo for Enchanted Doll.

I wanted to explore the idea of the human body as a story. In fact, my original concept was to draw a map tattoo over the body. Then I began exploring the unrealistic standards of beauty for women, which is a recurring theme in Enchanted Dolls and also one that I am really interested in. That eventually lead to the exploration of the corset as a constricting snake around the doll’s waist.

Outwardly, the corset is a thing of beauty. However, it is painful and possibly even lethal.


The design is¬†inspired by Gustav Klimt’s eccentric patterns and obsession with gold. It is meant to be a play between raised gold overlay tattoos (such as in Makhdot) and the engraved tattoos (such as in Peacock).

I’m not all too happy with my rendering of the tattoo. I had to submit it today, as I will be travelling and won’t be able to work on it any more before the deadline. Hence, it’s a bit rushed and uncleaned.

Anyway, the illustration and the base sketch were done in watercolor on a khadda paper journal. It was then scanned, and the final rendering done in Photoshop.

I don’t really expect to win anything, but Marina’s contests are always a joy to enter. It’s always great challenge to rack my brains for concepts and then force myself to have them done on paper. I find that some of my best works are done during Enchanted Doll contests. My¬†previous entries include the 2010 pixel art piece Natural Beauty and a 2013 postcard of my home island.

The winners and all the entries will be posted at the Enchanted Doll website on Marina’s birthday, March 16. ūüôā


International Day of Peace 2014: The Right of Peoples to Peace

The International Day of Peace, held every September 21st, is very special to me. I started my current job in August of 2012, at first clueless about peacebuilding and what it entails. I guess I was hired for my technical skills, and not in any way because of either social awareness or passion in the field. (Or perhaps because my own father did have social awareness and passion in the field and the reputation kind-of rubbed off.) Eventually, I did acquire both. Or at least, I hope I did.

That said, I consider my first International Day of Peace Celebration in Aleosan, North Cotabato as my birth into peacebuilding work. I was about one month into the job, but when you’re in this field you will never truly “get it” until you’ve been immersed into the community. And the International Day of Peace, our lovely Cambodian intern, Chariya, and the art workshop she organized for the youth there all paved the way for my immersion.¬†For last year’s celebration, I also made an¬†illustrated banner for the celebration in Gingoog City

This year’s theme is “The Rights of Peoples to Peace”.¬†This is quite relevant here in Mindanao, where years of historical injustice have caused peoples to be marginalized, and the effect is that until now many of us¬†still live in volatile and conflict-affected situations. My special prayer for this year is the passage of the Bangsamoro Basic Law, which I believe is, in a nutshell, one step further to inclusiveness and addressing many of the issues brought about by that historical injustice. But that’s another long story I’ll save for later, when I have the time to tell it in a way that does it its true justice!

Like last year’s banner, this year’s was illustrated with¬†ink and paper, scanned, and then colored in Photoshop Elements. I’m not super 100% happy with the results, but when I saw it printed I think I can live with it. Fonts used are Great Vibes,¬†Gobold¬†and Nymphette.

So how are you celebrating the International Day of Peace this year? I’ll tell you all about mine when I come back home!

Bonus, WIP shot: (Where anyone who knows Photoshop can see that the making of this banner was actually rushed and poorly planned)



Lakbay Aral Banner

Lakbay Aral – Disaster Preparedness Banner
Vector (in Inkscape)
February 2014

Vector is the ideal medium for making neat, polished graphics on the rush. Here, I used Inkscape, a simple, free vector program that I like far better than CorelDraw (which I’ve also tried). Given more time, I would have liked to place in kids peeking from the “bus” windows, pointing at more kids at the corner with an umbrella.¬†I feel that I ought to say that I disprove of long, complicated titles that use big words.


ALC Logo

Amando’s Learning Center Logo
Digitally Painted (in Adobe Photoshop Elements 8.0)
January 2014

I was asked to redesign the logo for Amando’s Learning Center in Talomo Beach, Davao City. Full-blown cutesy isn’t really in my style range, but I think it worked out somewhat.

A few in-progress shots: